4th inning.

Last Thursday was the 4th inning - the 1/3 mark of this season (or one long 12 inning game).  I wish I could say it's been an easy weekend, but I've really struggled with nausea, fatigue, and rough emotions.  I came to the conclusion that I really don't want to go through 8 more chemo treatments. The actual treatment day wasn't too out of the ordinary.  My good friend KT met Erik and me beforehand and stayed with me while I snoozed through the IV benadryl and walked me home. Aside from napping all afternoon on the couch, I was ok.  Friday and Saturday on the other hand were tough.  I had great company, but I was just frustrated.  I also know that part of my frustration and sadness comes from the realization that my hair is really thinning.  Sometimes I wish I could just shave it off and be done rather than see handfulls everyday, but part of me still hopes that I'll escape this side effect.


Today is looking up.  This morning Erik and I enjoyed breakfast and newspapers at a local coffeeshop followed by a very meaningful church service.  Our pastor shared her remarkable story of God's healing from stage IV non-hodgkin lymphoma that happened only after every other treatment failed.  It was so encouraging to see her standing tall as a survivor and I'm able to see that however long this season may be, it will end well.  After church Erik and I had a picnic in Clark Park and played catch, which was great practice for Citybears softball this afternoon.  I think it was in that game that I felt truly ok for the first time since Thursday.  It's always a hurdle to get from Thursday to Monday after each treatment, but this one for some reason was heavier.  But I can say from experience that Monday does come and I'm still very fortunate to have so much of my life unscathed by cancer.


Big thing for next week is a PET scan on Thursday... the hope is for at least 1/2 of the cancer to be gone.  Hoping, hoping, hoping.


Thanks friends.


Love,
katy

Happy Birthday shout out to my little bro.  13 years old on April 15th!